It's all in my head

Do you know what one of the most depressing things for me is? It's waking up on a day like today - by myself, no friends or family around me, and getting out of bed and logging on to my computer, and then I check my mail. "You have no new messages." I think it's a combination of several things - me being alone, which triggers a rapid downswing in my emotions to where I just feel really down, which could be early stages of bi-polar disorder (a joke! although it does run in my family), and then after being alone and down, calling home to only get the answering machine (where are they anyway?), and then checking my mail in the hopes that someone extended the reach of written contact to me, but I have no new messages. Doesn't anyone love me? I'm kidding! People have lives, I definitely understand that. So, feeling all down, I went and took a shower. When I came back, I had one new email message! It was an author's reply to my review of her online story (on fanfiction.net). That, for some reason, produced a dramatic change in my psychological state - I was happy. Maybe I am really crazy. I must be, because I'm going to end this post to go and study some genetics.