Pardon my French and my wordiness; I need to vent

I've just had my second day of classes, and I feel very much like cussing right now. I had a good morning, with my Genetics Problem Session and Self Defense, and then I jumped into Quantitative Chemistry, which is going to be a hell of a lot, and then I went to Special Topics in Plant Evolution, and I said, "What the fuck?" Let me explain something about me: I am somewhat smart, and I am somewhat hardworking, but I absolutely abhor reading from text books, busy work, and writing. I was most looking forward to this class because I like evolution and learning about history, but I mean, come on, do I get time to breathe? The workload is ridiculous. I am already considering (heavily leaning towards) dropping the course. It's not required - it's a free elective. I hate writing, and yet - I will have a paper due at the start of almost every class, plus a huge term paper, and summarizations of these long-ass movies we have to watch on our own time. If I drop the class, however, I will only be taking 13 hours. The minimum courseload required to be considered a full time student is 12, so I'd still be full time, but I've never taken so few hours. I've always almost maxed out (with the exception of last semester). It's my decision, and it wouldn't hurt me in the long run, considering I have two semesters after this to spread four major classes and one minor class across. But, when I make this decision, it's going to be hard to convince my parents that it is in no way related to me wishing to slack off or to me wishing to devote my time to someone who is not school-related, although those two things are very urgent desires of mine. Let me plan my argument.

I wish to drop BO 295E for the following reasons:
1. My other courses are extremely demanding with mandatory reading (I have to read to keep up and to understand things). I will have almost too much work as it is without Botany.
2. Of all my courses, this is the only one that is not required of me, with the exception of my tutoring course, and therefore is expendable
3. Of all my courses, this one has the most work required of me
4. Of my expendable courses, tutoring actually pays money, and botany doesn't
5. Tutoring is going to require a minimum of three and a maximum of six hours a week outside of class, so in effect, it is like taking a three or four credit hour class, and therefore, even though my schedule might show thirteen hours, my schedule will at least be fifteen hours, if not more.
6. It is the second day of school, and already I feel like giving up everything (I've felt this way before, but it usually occurs around final exam week). By giving up one class, I can restore some order and sanity to my academic life. Seriously, I want to scream/cry/cuss right now, although it wouldn't do me any good.

But on the flip side, I have several reasons to keep taking BO 295E
1. Dr. Thakor, my professor, was also my advisor for my first two years here. She knows me, and is just tickled that I am taking another one of her classes. If I leave, I might (to put it lamely) hurt her feelings, which is also taking into account that there are only thirteen students in the class, so if I leave, there will only be twelve.
2. I was originally going to take this heavy of a course load when I went to register, but I couldn't get into Human Anatomy, so I took both sociology of medicine and botany to keep my credit hours up. I am actually taking less hours currently, at 16, than I originally intended to take. And now I want to take even less.

Hmmm, decisions decisions. I hate making decisions. Don't ask me what I want to do with my future, or even what I want for dinner. I don't know, and I'll probably take forever to decide. But not for this class - my deadline is Sunday. That leaves me enough time if I decide to continue to with the class to finish the paper and the reading assignment due on Tuesday.

So, I didn't cuss as much as I thought I would. Damn. But, I did get as verbose as I normally do when I'm nervous, worried, and slightly depressed, as I am now. Now, on to my extensive homework in other classes, and then a dollar movie at the campus cinema at 9:30. Tomorrow, I'm going home! I should be home around four or so, and I can't wait!