The Fun Goals

Right now, my big goal is to find a job, and I'm getting around to it, but I'm a commitment-phobic and I don't want to make such a big decision. And I'm scared, but I will get over it and get on with it.

I'm looking forward to my other goals far more than I am to finding a job, and although I need to find the job and get settled before I can even think of achieving any of those goals, I thought I'd list some of them here just to help motivate me...

I want my own apartment, something I can paint any color I choose. My bedroom will be a deep burgundy wine color with white trim, and I'll have a room full of Navy and Gray-blues and bright white trim, and I'll have a tropical theme room with a limey green and aqua blue, and another room with a beautiful Italian Terra Cotta (Orange-ish) and other golden tones. I want color. I am sick and tired of neutral grays, whites, beiges, and pastels. Give me color, vibrancy, brilliancy, and life! I'll also have self-made artistic things around the apartment, whether they be things I've painted onto the wall, or artistic arrangements of photos I've taken or posters I've collected...I'm going to have an interesting, visually stimulating place!

And in that place, I'm going to have an animal. I think small dogs are cute, but I would never want one. I want a huge dog, like Zeus, or Zoey, and maybe I'd go as small as Scrappy was, but no smaller. But I couldn't live with myself if I cooped one up inside of an apartment all day, so I'll settle for a cat or two. I like cats too.

I want to live close to an ocean, preferably the Atlantic Ocean. I love the beach, the smell of the water, the sound of the surf, the feel of sand between my toes and the wind blowing through my hair with a bunch of beautiful sea shells in my pocket. And I love the south; I have to live in the south. I need the beauty of azaleas around me each spring; they're so beautiful!

And speaking of plants, I want a garden, of sorts. Maybe not a vegetable garden, but a nice front bed that I can grow some flowers and herbs in. I'm getting ready to re-plant my peppermint and spearmint plants up in Dad's garden. I think I have a knack for keeping plants alive, and I'd like to continue.

I want to go out at least once a week, to the movies, to dinner, shopping, museums, parks, nature trails...anything really to get me out of my apartment or I'll run the risk of being an apartment-potato recluse. I really don't care if I go with someone or alone; I'm not fussed either way because I happen to enjoy my own company and I can always meet someone along the way. I definitely want to go to the movies at least once a month, to see something in the theatres because very few things in life bring me so much excitement as the sight of a giant screen filled with crisp, clear images and sound so wonderful I can feel it!

I want to see my family often. I love my family, and I've never been the sort of person who goes out and makes a lot of friends, so family and friends who are like family has pretty much been it as far as my social life goes, and I'm quite happy to let it continue that way.

I want to tutor. Odd, I know, but I've been thinking that I really really enjoyed tutoring. It was the next best thing to teaching, but without the pressure of designing lesson plans. I like the one-on-one or one-on-group interaction that I had, and I want to continue tutoring Organic Chemistry because I still love the subject and don't want to give it up.

I want my own family. I want to find the guy who is right for me, marry him, and have at least two children, one of them a daughter whom I will name Anne Lee, and then a son who I'd like to name William, but Nathaniel is good, but I'm also very open to suggestions on that side, but my daughter's name is pretty much set in stone. I want a small wedding, family and close-friends only. What Aunt Jean said at Graduation is right. I am a very emotional person, and I'm sure to be a wreck on my own wedding day just like I was before lunch when I graduated, so I'd prefer as few people as possible to see me like that.

I want to be part of a church. I'm not sure what religion, but I'd like one that's open-minded and focuses on doing good for others rather than placing the focus on traditions and the appearance of piety. I want my children to believe in a higher power like I do, and to believe in an afterlife.

I want to write a book, and sell at least one hundred copies once it gets published. I'd really love it if it was adapted into a movie starring some of the most gorgeous and talented actors present in my column of fame!